BABOOM BABOOM BABOOM

baboom boom boom baboom boom boom baboom boom boom that is the sound of a heart with a double lead pacemaker beating..... and when it goes 180 beats a minute it is really loud! I sat for two hours fighting the urge to call 911. My son finally made the call totally pissed off that I waited so long. He is so mature for his young 30 years. Maybe too mature in this area. I hate going to the hospital although my contact with men, the ambulance guys, is the only contact with men I seem to have nowadays..... I am laying down on a make shift bed but nothing romantic about this time together. Blood pressure cup getting tighter, cold monitor leads sticking to skin, needle going in to my arm(please let the first stick be good). Damn ... 3 sticks later the medicine is running in the pressure seems to go a little but the pressure is not tolerable. F*ck this hurts Sorry I say give me the swear jar and I will put my quarter in..... Then he says it to the driver.....we need to go code 3 lights sirens and fast... so what does that mean I am looking at the monitor the heart rate is 235 that can't be good. Wait isn't my pacemaker suppose to stop it at 120...... is that why I keep feeling the leads kicking. Is that why my chest feels like I have an elephant sitting on it. Pain I don't have pain I have pressure... But that is a woman's pain. we tolerate it differently then men.... Pain level 1-10 with 10 being the worst Hell no it is a 20 right now! I am trembling like a leaf in a 100 mph wind.... I am not cold is it nerves or adrenaline.... My road is bumpier in an ambulance glad to get on the tar road... we are going so fast... do you think it is really necessary? can't we slow down maybe stop at the store for a coke... I could use a coke right now......
Fly into the ER familiar faces all saying hello... to many people this making me nervous... wait don't take off my socks my feet are cold.... I hear a baby crying and ask if it is real they say yeas Phew I didn't want to be hearing things that weren't there yet..... Xrays, blood work questions doctors more doctors talking to my doc in Portland Should we send her to Portland wait no beds maybe Bangor I say NO,,,,,,,, finally after 2 hours the heart settles down meds on board things are going better the pressure is a 4 now so I can tolerate it at this level. Can I go home now! what I have to stay.....
Finally in the Special Care Unit things get quiet. No monitors beeping, no other people screaming or crying... I have a nurse all to my self. She sits with me through the night.

This is the hardest thing for me to go through. I have always taken care of myself never relied on others and when I am in this situation, I don't have control. That is the worst feeling for me. Even worse than the pain. I guess it is all relevant though. I have to surrender and trust those taking care of me. Trust them to do what is right trust them to know when things are going south,,,,,,

OK so here I am home again after a whirlwind trip to the Special Care Unit at the Redington Fairview Hospital. I am a true believer in things happening for a reason and this was so true this week. Since I was suppose to be on a cruise in the Caribbean for the first time in my life this week but it was canceled. I met up with my past PA who moved out of the practice I use several years ago... She was a light in the dark for me at the hospital. We chatted through the night and she brought me back to being confident at the moment. She was with me 6 years ago when this heart condition surfaced, she held my hand many days in the hospital at the time and I was heartbroken when she left. But she was my savior this week.

I missed my daily dose of Etsy chat so back to posting and listing and selling I hope... Remember to love the ones close to you, tell them each day and take care of yourself....

Tye Dye Akins!

I always look my tie dyes over from top to bottom after I dry them. It is always a wonder to me how the dye makes awesome designs. Sometimes in those designs you can see things that appear. This past season I had what I like to call tye dye akins that have evolved in my work. Many of my silk scarves have had designs in them that look like little people or aliens or my new colony of tye dye akins! Check out my new items I made up from some of those scarves this week. I will be adding them slowly over the next few days... It is like bringing them to life.

This is also the time of year for me to I take a break from dying. I still do custom orders and the items for my monthly clubs but nothing to add to the general inventory. I try to do my major dying outside when the weather is at least 60 degrees. Although 5 years ago I did a huge order of 500 tee shirts for a school in North Carolina in March outside. It was a trip for sure. I used my vending booth and it sides with a heater. I do a large order (125 shirts) in February for a memorial ski race at the Kents Hill School, this being my 4th year and I tend to do it on the floor in my tiny dining room/ craft room. Someday I will have a house with a work area big enough but then again are they ever big enough.





Thanks for stopping by. I have just recently done my business plan for the upcoming year. Don't think I sound organized or anything because I am certainly far from that. But I am involved in a program called "ticket to work". I have to turn in paperwork over the year to the coordinator. It is for folks that are disabled and want to continue to work. I get to do my thing they leave me alone and I am allowed to make a certain amount without penalties. It isn't much but it gives me a continue sense of self worth. You can read about it here(http://www.webspawner.com/users/kyndlizzy/aboutme.html ). Becoming disabled in my 40's was not my plan but I have continued to work on adapting to this disability each day. To look at me you wouldn't know that I have a mechanical device to keep my heart going, my bones deteriorate everyday and I break fingers like spaghetti. I thank the goddess every morning for allowing me to wake up and breathe, and to actually get up out of bed. I hope to be able to continue with this business as long as I can and maybe pass it on to the granddaughter. She is so like me but her momma wishes she weren't such a artsy fartsy girl…..hehehe.

Well this is the beginning of a new line that I want to offer in my store. I have spent many years working with fabric and dying. I have done it all and always find something new and interesting in what I am doing. I guess that is why I continue on this journey. I have found a new venture and this is the beginning of my offerings.


My Tie Dyes became the apparel for one band I met on the road this summer from Mass .. ... and they keep ordering more.... I even did some reverse dying on some of their shirts. The band is lowercase p and that is me kinds scrunched in the middle of several men.. my favorite place to be...



Just a little humor for you all -- One day I was outside dying about 100 items and my oldest son called. I had a message on my phone that stated I was outside Dying and I would call them back as soon as I was done. Well my son called my other son who was working and made him come home quick cause I was Dying.... so I have learned to add the word Tie to the Dye!


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Yahoo

YAHOO

I am so excited I made a couple sales the last 2 days. I know it isn't many but for me this is just awesome. I joined Etsy in 2007 but never posted an item until this past fall. I have no excuse except for the fact I was unsure of the site. I had my own website where I sold a few items here and there, but I was relying on my summer vending as my main source of sales. I also have a couple of wholesale oders that I do every year for events, but one never knows if the event will be canceled.

SO I just had to Say it Yahoo I made 14 sales all together!

Don't forget to check out what the Maine Team is up to!

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My first Real BLog

I just realized that my family has grown so big over the last few months. I have met so many new members here on Etsy. I usually post a big blog every year about my plans for te new yea r and to recap the old. I haven’t done it yet this year. I guess I have been so busy following blogs, fighting with my dial up, following the business threads, fighting with my dial up, looking at shops on Etsy, fighting with my dial up, going out on blind dates, and fighting with my dial up!

It is so much fun to chat with folks daily that have the same mindset about handmade items. I worked in the corporate world for years then in social service and I always had a bag of something crafty to do in my desk or trunk to do on my breaks. Now that I am retired due to health, it is fun to sit and do the things that I enjoy. But do any of you go through a period where you have way to many projects? It is funny for me . Winter is the most difficult for me to stay focused. In warm weather I can do 100 items at a time tye dying them and not blink an eye. But can I sit here and make a dream catcher…. Ohhh noooo cause I am also thinking about that dog jacket I want to whip up and the little silk hair tye /bags that I want to make for our Valentines event.

But I do know that I want to focus on this Maine team, make more connections,get to some of the gatherings, and hopefully get the March craft fair going…. So think about March 21 for a fair in Mercer. Maybe we can do team tye dye shirts! Work on putting together gift baskets for MPBN Television Auction....

Some of the things happening with the Maine Team... We have a Valentine thread going....http://www.etsy.com/forums_thread.php?thread_id=5993177&page=1






Well, my first real attempt at a blog.. I will try more later.